Hey, guys.

Bible says that out of the mouths of babes we will be lead to God, or something like that. I can believe that now, because there's this younger teen sci-fi book I've been reading (you know, one of the ones you read "for old times sake") has brought something to my attention. The author didn't mean to; but somehow it hit me this way. And, it scares me, bad. It's kinda a massive thought, so bear with me.

"Finally, draw your strength from the Lord and from his might power. Put on the armor of God so that you may be able to stand firm agianst the tactics of the devil. For our struggle is not with flesh and blood but with the principalities, with the powers, with the world rulers of the present darkness, with the evil spirits in the heavens." Ephesians 6: 10-12

I learned that the devil was real before I did God. Maybe that's why I've had so many problems with depression and suicide. But, it's just come to my attention lately we really are in the midst of a darkness.

It scares me.

Part of who I am is a writer. I've never been published, but I think that's one ways God might be calling me to serve him.

The story I read is sci-fi. It's about aliens and death rays, so even though it's unbelievably melodramatic, it's kinda real. It shows just how real and sneaky and unsuspcicous the devil is, how he is working for the utter downfall of souls. And the world, as a whole, doesn't listen to it's only hope, Chirst and Christ's Church. And those who are of the world aren't going to pay attention to a religious book, such as "This Present Darkness", anymore than the young adult books.

Sometimes I feel like I can...sense when something isn't right. The war right now is an example. Why am I not enlisting? I have a sense which refuses to go away that ultimayely, this conflict is the start of something that's going to be very, very, very bad, and as a soldier, I won't be in the place God wants me to be. It's not my calling, as it were. I don't know any more than that. But, sometimes, I just want to stand up and SCREAM!!! The devil is so sneaky, and so real, and he is IN THIS WORLD apparently being allowed to do what he wants unmolested. And I'm scared to say what I think needs to be said because I can believe that some people have their dreams, thier callings, stamped on because of the "the world leaders of this present darkness."

God (and yes, I'm finally getting to him) is SO AMAZING!!! Because, Christ's death shows us that we don't have to be afraid, we don't have to be consumed by fear because he already has the victory ultimately. His death is our SALVATION and HOPE! LITERALLY!

Please know that when I say sense, I don't even fully understand it...it's just a "knowledge", a "feeling", SOMETHING that is in me that I can't explain. I think I know, in this sense, what God wants me to do. I am in the world, but not of it. I HAVE to do what I can, and right now, what I can do is pray!

My fear (I HATE THAT WORD) is that I don't know how to pray the prayers that I need to say. So, would some of you please pray with me? I don't know if you want to pray the rosary, whatever, but just pray for the world, becuase it is plunged in a darkness, and there are so many who are lost and won't listen or watch for the light that is our...marvelous, undesrcibable, awesome Father, Messiah, and Spirit!

Peace in Christ's love and life!
CttC

Wow, thank you so much for that CttC. Sometimes you don't realize it when you are involved with your own daily dealings, but this is what people need. To realize the need of the world. To come back to realization that prayers are needed!

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