i don't know what you guys think about this. But i have talked with many people about vocations, and i guess a big thing for them is that the only way they would do it is if the clouds opened up, and angels came forth with trumpets, and a booming thunderous voice would call out your name.
I don't know about you guys, b

ut i don't see whay God would make such a big deal about calling me, neither would i want him to. Calling me is such a big deal.
And i know that many Saint's have answered the call without ever experiencing ecstasies or visions, or revelations.

I don't know why my desire for complete giving, and suggestions from other really holy people weren't a good enough indication. Add to that my the grace to have lived in a chastely for a couple of years.
But no extravagant things. But then there were all these things that i felt God was affirming my decision after i made it. So i don't know, i think God shows more signs after decided then before.
SHALOM