Okay, I'm back! It was wonderful

For anyone interested, there will be a new "discernment weekend", in The House That Is Not The Motherhouse in the Netherlands (there are two houses here).
The sisters at Vogelenzang are so sweet. They're all elderly, so they have what they call "especially holy hour" after lunch - in which they all go to their cells and sleep

Oh, Catholic Anonymous - I asked Sr. Elvira Maria, and she told me that the Carmelites DCJ in Berlin have a home for the mentally ill!
(I say you can come to the Motherhouse for your formation, they speak German there, and I bet Sr. Maris Stella and M. Angelina wouldn't mind another English speaker! :P)
When Sr. Elvira Maria was a postulant, she promised her community 5 more postulants! Currently it seems that she'll make it - there will probably be three girls starting postulancy in September!
And yet again - the Sisters started measuring me up for the habit. AGAIN. Mind you, these are DIFFERENT Sisters (except for two). There's a sister visiting from Croatia to make all the sisters in Vogelenzang new habits (she gave a show on "how to make 15 full-length scapulars in one afternoon" during lunch). She disagreed with the seamstress in Sittard: apparently I wouldn't need two bundles of cloth because I might be 6'5", but I'm quite slim, so she could use half-width cloth (the technicalities were beyond me). After which I blushed my head off.
And of course, when we visited the nearby seminary and the rector provided us with chocolates (how to keep sisters blissfully happy section 2) everyone said "are you sure you should take one? You wouldn't want to grow out of your habit..." which repeated at dinner.
The sisters are, in my non-expert opinion, quite strict in their observances (don't even think for a second that Sr. EM would put off praying the Stations of the Cross until she's home because she's working her apostolate from 5 in the morning until 11 in the evening - she just parked us in Chapel with another sister (professed for 64 years)!) but they do love to party. My view must be quite askew because every time I'm allowed near is more or less "a party", but they did wish Rome didn't keep grade down half their Solemnities
I still don't know whether there's any tugging going on. I'm afraid that I might mistake my affection for the sisters and the current pre-postulants for a tug, which won't do, of course. I will go on a longer retreat with them sometime during this year - that should tell me more.
I do think that if I turn out to be Carmelite material they'd better have a HUGE library - all those meditation hours!