loneliness

[Old_Joe]

I feel very alone a lot of the time. It's been an ongoing problem. I've been getting help for it, but I still feel alone. What's worse I feel like no one cares. Even when I'm among friends I still feel alone. I feel like it wouldn't matter if I was there. I don't want to feel this way. I don't understand why I'm supposed suffer like this. I've already had at least one person tell me that I make them uncomfortable and that no one really knows me. Hearing that confirmed all of my fears, and I've never really recovered from it. I don't know what to do. Why did this have to happen? Why can't I have what everyone else has? I know it's Easter and I'm supposed to be happy, but I'm not. I pray, but it feels like there's no answer. Sometimes, I doubt whether God is truly present. I feel so bad for saying, but it's how I feel.