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StThereseMaria

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You'll have lots of time in formation (if you pursue religious life) to see if it seems like a good fit, plenty of time to discern and step back if it doesn't seem right.

Don't get discouraged by negative thoughts.

I'd really encourage you to talk to someone you trust and who is spiritual and knowledgeable about religious life.  My pastor was very helpful for me when I was at your place.

Praying for you,
Sr. Christina Marie, OSF
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7 hours ago, gloriana35 said:

I agree with JHFamily. There are two areas you'll need to consider, during the process of becoming Catholic. (I'm not saying these necessarily apply to you, but many converts have to sort what they truly wish to do - and can have a period of thinking God expects something extraordinary.) Are you attracted to Catholicism because you wish to be a religious? (Proverbial cart before the horse...) Second, if you believe all religious are 'special', and that you might not be 'good enough' (it seems implicit that you may think there is extraordinary goodness in all religious), you'd need to explore whether you truly wish to embrace religious life, or whether you see it as a means to be special.

In itself, wanting to be special often draws someone to a way of life - it's not inherently negative. But one needs commitment in itself, far beyond that initial draw, to have a realistic picture.

The reason why i wish to be catholic because I believe God is calling me to it and for some unknown reason, I'm so strongly attached/attracted to it. 

 

The reason why i think one has to be special to enter a religious life is because most saints who entered religious life, I hear about how much good they are and they have received visions from God etc. For example, St Therese of liseux. I dont know...its just what i think.

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8 hours ago, gloriana35 said:

I agree with JHFamily. There are two areas you'll need to consider, during the process of becoming Catholic. (I'm not saying these necessarily apply to you, but many converts have to sort what they truly wish to do - and can have a period of thinking God expects something extraordinary.) Are you attracted to Catholicism because you wish to be a religious? (Proverbial cart before the horse...) Second, if you believe all religious are 'special', and that you might not be 'good enough' (it seems implicit that you may think there is extraordinary goodness in all religious), you'd need to explore whether you truly wish to embrace religious life, or whether you see it as a means to be special.

In itself, wanting to be special often draws someone to a way of life - it's not inherently negative. But one needs commitment in itself, far beyond that initial draw, to have a realistic picture.

Actually, I dont think there is extraordinary goodness in religious life but that doesn't mean it isn't a beautiful vocation. 

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You'll be in my prayers tonight. I was what was considered a late vocation during the 1970s - I just celebrated 42 years in consecrated life.

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13 minutes ago, gloriana35 said:

You'll be in my prayers tonight. I was what was considered a late vocation during the 1970s - I just celebrated 42 years in consecrated life.

Sorry, what do you mean?

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4 hours ago, StThereseMaria said:

The reason why i think one has to be special to enter a religious life is because most saints who entered religious life, I hear about how much good they are and they have received visions from God etc. For example, St Therese of liseux.

It is a dangerous way to think - "special" etc. Many people entered monasteries and a few became saints. On the other hand, much more people did not enter monasteries but some of them also became saints.

God gives visions and revelations to whoever He wants, regardless they holiness. St Teresa of Avila (a great Carmelite mystic who had received superabundant consolations from Our Lord) insists that visions etc. are not at all necessary for sanctity. 

On the other hand, every Christian has a kind of a mystical experience if he does not close his heart to God. When the Holy Spirit infuses into a mind a sudden deep understanding of the Scripture passage or a dogma, or when a person feels God speaks to him in a prayer it is also a kind of mystical experience. A "simple" person who after Mass sits in front of the Tabernacle in silence simply because he feel that is so good to be there with God is also having a mystical experience.

Someone enters a monastery not because he is special but because it is more fitting for him to follow Christ there than in the world. And there are huge sorrows there to endure. I think you got very sound advices here; I agree with others - the first step is to immerse yourself in the Catholic tradition. If God wishes so, eventually you will enter a monastery; if He does not then He will provide you with another path.

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20 minutes ago, Anastasia said:

It is a dangerous way to think - "special" etc. Many people entered monasteries and a few became saints. On the other hand, much more people did not enter monasteries but some of them also became saints.

God gives visions and revelations to whoever He wants, regardless they holiness. St Teresa of Avila (a great Carmelite mystic who had received superabundant consolations from Our Lord) insists that visions etc. are not at all necessary for sanctity. 

On the other hand, every Christian has a kind of a mystical experience if he does not close his heart to God. When the Holy Spirit infuses into a mind a sudden deep understanding of the Scripture passage or a dogma, or when a person feels God speaks to him in a prayer it is also a kind of mystical experience. A "simple" person who after Mass sits in front of the Tabernacle in silence simply because he feel that is so good to be there with God is also having a mystical experience.

Someone enters a monastery not because he is special but because it is more fitting for him to follow Christ there than in the world. And there are huge sorrows there to endure. I think you got very sound advices here; I agree with others - the first step is to immerse yourself in the Catholic tradition. If God wishes so, eventually you will enter a monastery; if He does not then He will provide you with another path.

Hmm...thanks so much anna! 

Whenever I read stories of saints/believers who get visions from God, I wonder why? I am just curious :) but it sometimes makes me wish I could get one as well...

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41 minutes ago, StThereseMaria said:

I am just curious :) but it sometimes makes me wish I could get one as well...

Understandably so however both  Roman Catholics and Eastern Orthodox Church insist on "never wish for the experiences" because if you do you open yourself to the delusions created by Devil and your own psyche. We are to desire to be with God, to be in  union with Him - how He does it it is up to Him and to us. We have to desire God for His own sake. This is a very common trap, to shift to desire the experiences and not God.

The safest road is one of humility "Lord, I am nothing do as You wish with me".

I think it would benefit you greatly if your read St John of the Cross. St Therese considered him to be her spiritual father.

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Anyway, to round up - I do not know how the Roman Catholic Church goes about that but if you came to the Orthodox Church you would be expected to immerse yourself into the liturgical life of the Church and also to begin following the normal rules, like fasting and a private prayer rule and also reading the Church fathers (early theologians) etc. This is hard enough to occupy yourself for several years but that school is invaluable. As for the monastery, a common practice in the Orthodoxy (for those who have been in the Church for some years) is to live in the world according to a monastic rule but only with the blessing of own spiritual father and in obedience to him. If he manages then he can go and try to live in a monastery as a lay person who helps monastics in the work and prays with them etc. seeing if his place is truly there.

All that being said to show you that you only at the door into the Church and need to learn the basic things which as far as I know are quite alien to most Protestants. All the best.

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I was referring to the number of years it has been since I made my vows - there is nothing about which you should be troubled by my responses.

Some of the best-known mystics (Teresa of Avila, for example) were very wary of their unusual experiences, and always cautious about the possibility of deception. Their lives often were centred on orthopraxy - liturgical prayer, manual labour in accord with the practise of their monasteries, study.  Most saints never had unusual experiences (in the sense of visions, for example.) I don't think it is something anyone should seek.

 

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I feel that if you need to have the meaning of  "consecrated life" explained to you, this is an indication of how much study you have ahead of you -- right back to basics.

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truthfinder

I want to mention here something that has not been picked up by any of the other commenters: her stated aromanticism.  What you write comes across as if you have completely dismissed marriage, and are now asking what you do with your life.  This sort of thinking of falling into religious life is problematic (same as if a man or woman said, I can't find a spouse, so I guess I must go to the monastery. Or vice versa, no monastery will take me, I will marry the next person who shows interest in me.)

Look more into converting to Catholicism, get a steady habit of prayer, put religious life out of your mind for awhile, and just try to live as a good Christian here and now. Solid Christianity is not based on feelings, and particularly not the sort that result from chasing mystical "highs." Our job is to take up our cross - in the form that it is given to us by God. The rest will follow.

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I just found this link, entirely by accident, when I was searching on another topic. It's hilarious, but has a good deal of solid insight about those who fret over vocation. (Not that I like the priest's writing style - I'd shudder if I ever heard someone say 'nope' - but read this with consciousness of the humour!) 

 

https://younan.blog/2020/05/23/discerning-a-vocation/

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1 hour ago, truthfinder said:

I want to mention here something that has not been picked up by any of the other commenters: her stated aromanticism.  What you write comes across as if you have completely dismissed marriage, and are now asking what you do with your life.  This sort of thinking of falling into religious life is problematic (same as if a man or woman said, I can't find a spouse, so I guess I must go to the monastery. Or vice versa, no monastery will take me, I will marry the next person who shows interest in me.)

Look more into converting to Catholicism, get a steady habit of prayer, put religious life out of your mind for awhile, and just try to live as a good Christian here and now. Solid Christianity is not based on feelings, and particularly not the sort that result from chasing mystical "highs." Our job is to take up our cross - in the form that it is given to us by God. The rest will follow.

 

Sorry, if I what I said comes across as a different meaning but that's isn't the reason why I want to pursue to a religious life. I never once even thought of it or entering one until one day, it popped into my head. I know that I'm fully content with my life as a single person and before all the idea of a religious life even came to my mind, I knew that that is the kind of life I wanted: A single life...but I believe God has other plans.

 

It is not like I'm dismissing marriage and so that means I have to enter a religious life. It just this is kind of life I want and I know that it is gonna be like this for the rest of my life. Hope I make sense this time.

 

edit: The reason why I put my aromanticism is because I wanna know if people out there have similar experience to me because I have only heard the majority of people entering religious life DO want a family and a spouse but some still decide to devote their life to God. However mine is different... Again, I never knew once thought of a religious life and I knew that pretty much I wanna live a single life and live by myself with my cat and three dogs lol but...the idea of it just came into my head out of nowhere and BAM, here I am thinking about it. 

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As you investigate Catholicism, you will discover that there are many paths to religious life, not all involve entering a convent.  Here on the forum, there are members in private vows but who live in secular life, Consecrated Virgins who don't appear obviously "religious" in daily life [but who are, intensely].  They are as devout as those in monastic life.

Therefore, your first step is to become thoroughly informed about Catholicism, and THEN, after conversion, if that happens, begin to investigate the different aspects of living as a Catholic.

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