Just A Few Issues

[XIX]

My faith is...it's struggling in some way. I'm nowhere near even thinking about leaving the Church, I know I want to be Catholic, I just don't have a ton of confidence in my own ability to be correct about these things.

I'm not sure exactly what's wrong with me, but I am hurting a lot. My heart is just sore. I clearly don't have myself pulled together at all. I'm told that realizing this is a good thing, but it doesn't make it easier to deal with. Numbness seems like an appealing alternative. Sore is much holier than numb.

Not that other people aren't chipping in to make things worse for me. But that's life. People are stupid. If I'm being affected by other people being dumb, then on some level I'm just reaping what I sow.

Our Lady of Sorrows, pray for us.