For Lent

[MIKolbe]

I gave up smoking for lent. it is a lot harder than i thought it would be. i don't know if i can do it. i am mad about that, i am anxious, can't sleep well, i sweat out of nowhere, and i am in an all around pissed off mood. i am trying to offer all this up...but it is just difficult. really, really difficult.

i am dealing with despair, which is pissing me off. i am mad and angry that i feel like i can't do this. i am mad because you can't offer something up and then complain about it.

i'm all confused and conflicted...and a want a cigarette.