Not Ready To Let Go Of My Self-destructive Behaviors

[fearundercontrol]

I realized last night that I still don't want to let go of my self-destructive coping mechanisms. I still want them. I want to want to let go, but the thing is, I don't want to let go and I don't know how I'm ever going to change that. I know all of these things are unhealthy and are only quick fixes and really only make things worse, but for some reason that doesn't seem to make a difference. I talked with my therapist about it today and so we are working on it, but it just seems like such a hopeless situation to me. So if you could please pray for me that I at least get to the point where I want to let go and give up all my self-destructive behaviors--and maybe even eventually succeed in doing so--I'd really, really appreciate it. Thanks.