Well I've Tried But It Just Aint Workin'

[Archaeology cat]

It can take awhile, but as I said before, just pray for God to bless them. Pray for them every single time you think about them. Eventually, you may find yourself at peace with this.

[puellapaschalis]

Can you separate yourself from both for a while?

At the moment I'm in a slightly different situation but I'm trying to keep myself to myself for a period to gather my thoughts and spend more time in prayer than previously.

[lost_in_this_world]

i'll try it just hard. i never htought i would ever find myself in this situation especially because my brother and i do not have a good relationship. its just touchy and im afraid to lose a friend but maybe we arent supposed to be friends anymore. anyway, we'll see and i'll post some updates.

[lost_in_this_world]

yeah well at this point my bro has done some things that I just want nothing to do with him. So yes this just makes it harder. I just want it to end and I can't wait. i don't care anymore about how mean that comment might be.

[lost_in_this_world]

im just sort of in a lose lose situation. i kinda pushed her away even though thats not what i want. im just not happy either way. and i dont know what to do to be happy

[icelandic_iceskater]

are you seeing a consular? If not, you may want to look into that.

Spiritual direction is good too

[Jesus_lol]

well, i have lost a couple best friends before, for some different reasons. it always smells of elderberries, but eventually it will be a non issue with you if it does happen.

[lost_in_this_world]

haha no i am not seeing a counselor. i know this post sounds really depressing and its mostly because i post about it when its bothering me but im not like completely focused and depressed about this. im actually pretty happy with most of the other things going on. so even though its a ll sad and depressing im pretty happy most/some of the time.

[lost_in_this_world]

well i dont know if anyone cares lol but i thought i would add an update. i just hung out with my friend and it was good. im working on getting over the whole fact but for some reason i just cant. its easier for me to just be mad at people then to be hurt by them but im trying. i still dont like it at all and dont think i will. anyway it was good and we'll see where it goes. i think if i had a better relationship with my bro, im sure i would feel better about the situation.

[Archaeology cat]

That's great that you were able to hang out with your friend! And who knows, maybe your relationship with your brother will improve through their relationship, given time (I'm a hopeless optimist, in case you can't tell )

[lost_in_this_world]

well its a nice thought that my bro and i relationship might get better but truthfully its a lost cause. it would prolly take a miracle.

[lost_in_this_world]

I'm pretty beaver dam sure that our friendship is over. I should've been nicer today but I couldn't.


this smells of elderberries. real bad.

i feel like it's my fault even tho I dont think it is.


that friendship was a wasted effort.

[CatherineM]

Friendships are never wasted effort. It's part of the process of learning how to be in a relationship. The lessons you learned here may make your relationship with your future spouse healthier.

[lost_in_this_world]

i disagree although right now my point of view may be a little skewed. i think bad friends form pessimistic opinions about people. at least i do.