Desolation And Discerning

[MarieLynn]

It is so natural to feel like this. I remember I almost gave it all away, I was certain I had done the wrong thing by applying to enter! Be strong Ale. Prayers coming your way.

[brandelynmarie]

Prayers that you may have the peace that passes understanding...no matter what other emotional storms or dryness may come.

[Ale.SOLT]

Thanks all. Keep Praying for me and I always prayer for Y'all

[Strictlyinkblot]

Are you feeling a bit better?

Or do you feel more like this?

prayers

[brandelynmarie]

Many of us understand this-----> for many different reasons.

[dominicansoul]

I don't mean to scare you, but you must realize that from this point on, you will be receiving the severest blows from satan he can throw your way...he wants you to struggle, he wants you to feel desolation and doubt, unrest and anxiety about your position in life... don't be fooled... remember he is the master of lies, and lies are what you are combating...

BUT teh Almighty God is closer to you than you can imagine, He has called you out of the darkness of the world into a light that is unimaginable... so bright and beautiful, that we can only wonder in awe that it exists in our world. The convent is paradise on earth. There you will realize the joys that God has for those He loves, for those He calls... don't allow anything to dissuade you... keep your eyes on Christ. You may not "feel" He is near, but He is closer to you than you can believe. This is what Faith is for, for times likes these when we feel as if Our Beloved has left us alone... Have Faith and believe, He is soo much in love with your whole being, you are called and chosen... keep your eyes focused solely on Him.. He needs you to bring His Light into the world!! You have a mission and a purpose taht only you can accomplish!

[littlesister]

We had a wonderful cousin who spent decades as novitiate infirmarian. When I was exactly where you are before entering, she assured me that this stage is normal, and, although it happens sooner or later to everyone, the-earlier-the-better. Although you have lots of company, that doesn't make it any easier! It can be hard to think about making the leap, but once you do a whole new world opens up. God bless the SOLT's and their wonderful ministries. They've been a favorite since their early days in a couple of family homes in Kansas City.

[MarysLittleFlower]

Apparently this could actually be a good sign! if you are truly doing God's will, there would be opposition or a test of some kind... I used to be Protestant and when I was preparing to receive the Sacraments, I went through a very frightening sort of time where I found it very difficult to even believe in God's existence.. I believed in my will but I felt otherwise. It seems many people go through this and it is normal try to focus on your will rather than your feelings. God bless you

[Ale.SOLT]

[quote name='Strictlyinkblot' timestamp='1321468476' post='2336945']
Are you feeling a bit better?

Or do you feel more like this?

prayers
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I Feel more like -->
But I have been praying alot. even though I dont feel Him sometimes. I pray.

[Ale.SOLT]

[quote name='dominicansoul' timestamp='1321481514' post='2337061']
I don't mean to scare you, but you must realize that from this point on, you will be receiving the severest blows from satan he can throw your way...he wants you to struggle, he wants you to feel desolation and doubt, unrest and anxiety about your position in life... don't be fooled... remember he is the master of lies, and lies are what you are combating...

BUT teh Almighty God is closer to you than you can imagine, He has called you out of the darkness of the world into a light that is unimaginable... so bright and beautiful, that we can only wonder in awe that it exists in our world. The convent is paradise on earth. There you will realize the joys that God has for those He loves, for those He calls... don't allow anything to dissuade you... keep your eyes on Christ. You may not "feel" He is near, but He is closer to you than you can believe. This is what Faith is for, for times likes these when we feel as if Our Beloved has left us alone... Have Faith and believe, He is soo much in love with your whole being, you are called and chosen... keep your eyes focused solely on Him.. He needs you to bring His Light into the world!! You have a mission and a purpose taht only you can accomplish!
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DS, you are so inspiring! thank you. That true has giving me more of a boost to get out of the lies of the devil.