marigold Posted May 28, 2014 Author Posted May 28, 2014 :bounce: Yes, double bounce!!!! So happy for you, for your lovely dream and for the dream into some form of reality. Praying for the project and for you, and praising God. Thank you!
marigold Posted May 28, 2014 Author Posted May 28, 2014 Hi Marigold. This is so precious, all the experience you share with us. I've never heard anybody describing my own feelings after having left the community so closely. For me it's at the time the question: actively looking for a monastery? or waiting for God's signs? I've always felt an inner urge towards searching and so I thought, as long as God gives me the impulse I will follow it. But at the moment I can't see to the ground. Somehow I wish nothing else but lazing around. Deciding is so arduous. Even if I decide to wait or to do "nothing" i. e. wait for God's initiative, I have to decide that... and time is running. My traineeship has 8 months left and then I have to find a decision for the time to follow. Perhaps you might find a few words to the "how to find the right monastery"-question... Senensis, I've been thinking about this and I think the answer is 'do both'. Somehow we have to be actively looking and actively waiting. The latter can feel passive or like a cop-out but it's not if we are praying a lot and keeping our eyes open. For me, it was literally before my eyes: someone showed me a fundraising postcard and told me about the foundation. From your posts in the Let's Get It Right thread, it looks like you've got some good ideas :)
TIWW Posted May 29, 2014 Posted May 29, 2014 Marigold, Though I am a past religious, I still read and at times reply here, because I think that where folks have been, what trials they have endured and all of the messy and wonderful life experiences we all have been through help others who may be going through some of the same things. Or the pitfalls of some may be avoided by the sharing of experiences. Our journeys are valuable to us personally, even though we can not possibly see it at the time. May God's loving presence surround you through this next phase of your path.
marigold Posted June 2, 2014 Author Posted June 2, 2014 I'd like to ask for everybody's prayers. It's been so good to write about this and see other people's reactions - but it's making for a lot of soul-searching and very hard work figuring out what to do next. I have at least three serious options and each one means a massive life change. Not necessarily a bad thing, but prayers are very much wanted, more than ever.
maximillion Posted June 2, 2014 Posted June 2, 2014 Yes, of course, praying the Holy Spirit will inspire and guide you as you make your decisions Marigold.
marigold Posted June 3, 2014 Author Posted June 3, 2014 Yes, of course, praying the Holy Spirit will inspire and guide you as you make your decisions Marigold. Merci beaucoup, chère sœur!
MargaretTeresa Posted June 4, 2014 Posted June 4, 2014 Lots of prayers! Please pray for me as I have a phone talk with a VD tomorrow. (As KrissyLou would say, finishing fully reactivating the nunnabe status. :p )
marigold Posted June 4, 2014 Author Posted June 4, 2014 Lots of prayers! Please pray for me as I have a phone talk with a VD tomorrow. (As KrissyLou would say, finishing fully reactivating the nunnabe status. :P ) Will pray!
Indwelling Trinity Posted June 4, 2014 Posted June 4, 2014 God Bless You, heal your heart and make you a saint!
marigold Posted June 16, 2014 Author Posted June 16, 2014 It's been a long weekend. My dad's in Intensive Care after heart problems during an operation. I also met up with the Father who is starting the foundation of the new monastery. He showed me the architectural plans, which are so lovely, and we were able to discuss a lot of things which it hasn't been possible to talk about while he's been travelling to raise funds all year. I'm meeting him again today for lunch, in between hospital visits. It's going to be a really small, modest women's monastery and Father will be the resident priest. Thankfully (from my perspective) it's just going to be a totally normative Orthodox monastery, the main work being prayer and receiving pilgrims. Since it's not happening by a rich benefactor, but by the donations of normal people, it'll likely be an uphill struggle financially. But that might be spiritually better. He's asked me to come travelling to parishes next year, which is a scary prospect but in a good, growing way. It makes me laugh sometimes, because I never in a million years would have signed up to this on my own volition.
maximillion Posted June 16, 2014 Posted June 16, 2014 The Lord works in mysterious ways......... Let us all know if there is somewhere or somehow we can donate........
TheresaThoma Posted June 16, 2014 Posted June 16, 2014 It makes me laugh sometimes, because I never in a million years would have signed up to this on my own volition. I definitely know the feeling. I think sometimes the Lord gives us a couple of "baby steps" but then just gives us a big shove into something we never thought we could or would do. Prayers for this project. I will also be praying for your dad. Let me know if you want/need to talk.
AnneLine Posted June 16, 2014 Posted June 16, 2014 Prayers for you and your dad and for the new monastery, Marigold!!!!
brandelynmarie Posted June 17, 2014 Posted June 17, 2014 (edited) Holding you & everyone (especially your dad) & everything in prayer. Fiat mihi!:saint: Edited June 17, 2014 by brandelynmarie
marigold Posted June 17, 2014 Author Posted June 17, 2014 (edited) The Lord works in mysterious ways......... Let us all know if there is somewhere or somehow we can donate........ I definitely know the feeling. I think sometimes the Lord gives us a couple of "baby steps" but then just gives us a big shove into something we never thought we could or would do. Prayers for this project. I will also be praying for your dad. Let me know if you want/need to talk. Prayers for you and your dad and for the new monastery, Marigold!!!! Holding you & everyone (especially your dad) & everything in prayer. Fiat mihi! :saint: A big, heartfelt THANK YOU to everyone who has been praying for my dad. They've taken out his breathing tube and yesterday he was moved out of Intensive Care and into a high dependency unit. Everything is progress and I'll take what I can get. He was incredibly grumpy and told me off for not being able to figure out how his ancient radio worked - and that actually felt wonderful, as it shows he's alive and kicking instead of on six drips with tape over his mouth. I never want to go through that again. By your prayers... EDIT: Why isn't PM showing YouTube links as videos anymore?! Edited June 17, 2014 by marigold
marigold Posted June 17, 2014 Author Posted June 17, 2014 And if any of you do want to donate - though I'd like to keep details private for now - that would be dearly appreciated. Please PM me if you want to do so.
maximillion Posted June 17, 2014 Posted June 17, 2014 So pleased to hear your Dad is improving....continued prayers..
marigold Posted June 25, 2014 Author Posted June 25, 2014 :) :) :) My dad's out of hospital and settled in at home. By your prayers! :) :) :) I got another piece of news in the past week: one of the sisters at my former community, who left a few months after I did, has decided not to continue in monastic life. She's been living near the monastery, still as a nun until now. She was my closest friend there, and a true inspiration in the Christian life. So I feel kind of sad about that.
Hemma Posted June 25, 2014 Posted June 25, 2014 Oh dear:( I understand that very well. My very best friend ever in my former community has left the community too and by now she's organizing a massive campaign against the community. This is SO sad.
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